The Day I Fell In Love

Up to now, I still remember very clearly the day I fell in love with nong. I don't recall all the details, but I remember the feeling, like it was just yesterday.

I just got home to the dorm that day, found a friend in distress and needed my help. Later on, I would find out that she owed money to somebody, and when the time to settle the debt came and she couldn't pay up, nong volunteered to pawn a ring to help her. Now, the day has come for her to payoff the loan and claim the ring, otherwise, it would have been auctioned. Problem was, she didn't have the money. Bigger problem was, that ring was special. It was a gift from nong's mom, and he would surely want it back. SO she asked for my help, if I could lend her the money to bail her out...

Now, this friend, (whom don't get me wrong, i love very much), has in many cases, got me burned with the issue of money. And so this time, i thought i'll teach her a lesson, and not lend her any. I was feeling proud of myself - teach her a lesson so that in the future, she'd be more careful with what she spend, etc etc...and so I told her I didn't have money to spare, and gave her a lecture on how to spend properly, blah blah blah. I remember now I wasn't a good spender either, and totally had no right giving a lecture, but hell, i was feeling a bit righteous. I didn't even feel guilty.


ANd so, we parted ways after that, I went off to my next class, she to hers. At the end of the day, i asked her how things turned out and she said it got sorted out. And how it did just overwhelmed me, that to this day, i just couldn't forget.

Apparently, upon learning she couldn't pay up, assures her there's no problem, not to worry because he'll pay off the loan with his own money. I was floored.I was just ashamed of myself. and with came a deeper feeling of respect and awe for someone whose heart was so good. It wasn't as if nong was rich or something. HE was just a student like us, living on a meager allowance.

I was shamed by my selfishness. Here was a man who was good enough to help the first time, didn't get anything back, helped the second time without asking in return, without passing any judgement, without putting any blame...just doing his duty as a christian silently, without arrogance...

I don't remember all the details, but if there is anything vivid to this day, it was the feeling of my heart lurching, like it suddenly rejoiced in knowing it met its worthy taker. I remember thinking, here's a good heart, here's a good soul...I want to be worthy of them.

That was the day I fell in love with the most wonderful man on earth.